ann's journey

systems do really bagged down. earlier this afternoon i did not feel really well, not only physically but also emotionally. i took a nap hoping that everything will be alright when i wake up, however the feeling escalated and evolved into depression. this has been the second time and this time i tried to call some very important friends but they could never be reached or they had other things to attend before me. i tried calling some other significant people but i didn't get the word that could at peace me. so i finally dialed home and looked for my lola (grandma), yes its my first time to tell them my sentiments and my issues here and i just felt that was necessary for them to know and for them to help me pray with whatever situation i'm in. my lola just reminded me of the very fact why im here and that its not easy for me to just give up and go home and advised me to stretch some more of my patience coz there's still more debts, tuition, allowances and other things to be paid of. yes, i came here for my family and im happy with that, however, i just wish i could be happier with my decision...

i never thought that i could find life outside life...hoping that it will grow...im happy being in it.

its been awhile since i wrote here...its not because i don't have time. i just didn't have the jest to do it...
its been awhile since im in a strange place and now i call it a home...
its been awhile since im in a strange job but now i call it my life...
yes its hard to figure out in a strange place but as time goes by everything that is strange will now then become familiar and familiarity is somewhat a strategy to make things and life easy.
eventually, for the record, i now accept that i am not anymore in a strange place but in a familiar way of my journey.
i just hope i will then be happy ...